I started writing this post when I was fresh of holiday mode and the morale was on an all-time high. Many things has happened since; my husband and I have started ONE more venture (just to throw some more stress into the mix) and I’ve had quite a few ups and downs with my already existing business. All while trying to balance home life, friends, work and living a healthy lifestyle. Uhh..yeah! It’s not a piece of cake.
I often take for granted the fact that I don’t have to answer to a boss anymore. That means that I can basically do what I want right? Nope! I still have plenty of responsibilities and I keep pretty busy during the days (and late nights and weekends and holidays..) working on my businesses and projects. My schedule is never 9-17 and each day is different. I have had pleeeenty of comments thrown at me “yes, but you don’t understand because you don’t work” quickly followed by a “oh..but, you know what I mean” I used to take a lot of offense to such comments. No I don’t have a nine to five, I feel like I have a twenty-four seven! I guess I should start making myself look more busy. The fact that it’s impossible to shut off from work because it can make you feel guilty. You pepper yourself with “I should be doing this or that” in order to grow your business. Completely disconnecting is virtually impossible.
The reason why I am writing this post is because multiple times, I’ve had the opportunity to get on a plane and visit my family without any planning. The last time, I booked a flight and was at the airport 1.5 hours later ready for boarding. I remember sitting at the airport and I realized how incredibly lucky I am to have that freedom and opportunity to do something so spontaneous. Just because I felt like it! That is what inspired me to write this post. Unfortunately, I can’t go to my sister’s house every Sunday to have family dinner with the kids, or see my mom and dad whenever I want to. It makes me realize even more how important it is to continue to be my own boss. It’s something that I am very passionate about and I am learning everyday how important that freedom is to me.
With all the downs that come with being self-employed – If I can encourage other people to take that step and do what they love. If I can encourage others to live their life and follow their passion and dreams, then I’ve done my part. My passion at the moment is not necessarily what I am doing, my passion is the freedom, but I only have plans to grow, expand, multiply, and throw a few more balls in the air to juggle. I realize that this is not possible for a lot of people in the world. We all have bills to pay and responsibilities that come with being an adult. Yet, far too often do I hear people complaining about their jobs. Even worse, they have a great idea they just don’t have the guts to trust themselves. We get ONE life to live. The choices we make with work, friendship, marriage, hobbies, family – that’s all a choice, and best of all its YOUR choice, which means you have the power.
I am at the age now where most of my friends have found their career path in life and enjoy what they do. But it has taken a good 10-15 years of trial and error, hard work, getting fired on birthdays, zero regard for your health or family issues. If you’re thinking of taking that big step of going out on your own, don’t let fear hold you back. My trainer (and part-time therapist) Ana Alexandre, shared this quote with me and I have shared it with many more because it speaks to all of us on different levels.
I will leave you with that.. :)
Our deepest fear …
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
—-from A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson.